Warm Heart

For a moment I though I could forget you.
For a moment I thought I could still the loneliness in my heart.
I thought the past could no longer haunt me, nor hurt me.
How wrong I was.


For the past, no matter how distant, is as much a part of me as life itself.
And you are part of that life.
You are so much a part of me, of my dreams, my youth, and my ambitions that in all my tasks I can't help remembering you.
Many little delights and things remind me of you.


Yes, I came. And would my pride mock my real feelings?
Would the love song, the sweet and lovely smile on your face, be lost among the deepening shadows?


I have wanted to be alone. I thought I could make myself forget you in silence and in songs...


And yet I remembered. For who could forget the memory of the once lovely, the once beautiful, the once happy world such as ours?


I came because the song that I kept through the years is waiting to be sung. I cannot sing it without you. The song when sung alone will lose the essence of its tune, because you and I had been one.


I have wanted this misery to end, because it is part of my restlessness.


Can't you understand?
Can't you divine the depth and the tenderness of my feelings towards you?
Yes, can't you see how I suffer in this even darkness without you?


You went away because you mistook my silence for indifference.
But silence, my dear, is the language of my heart.
How could I essay the intensity of my love when silence speaks a more eloquent tone?
But perhaps, you didn't understand....


Remember, I came, because the gnawing loneliness is there and will not be lost until the music is sung, until the poem is heard, until silence is understood.....until you come to me again.


For you alone can blend music and memory into one consuming ecstasy.
YOU ALONE....




A very great poem from one of my English lecturer's(Lim Ho Peng) friend, Annalee.
All credits goes to her.

I would also like to dedicate this poem to you..

Puteriku Sayang

Aduhai puteriku sayang 

Aduhai puteriku sayang 

Puteriku sayang 

Lembutmu tak bererti kau mudah dijual beli 

Kau mampu menyaingi lelaki dalam berbakti 

Lembut bukan hiasan 

Bukan jua kebanggaan 

Tapi kau sayap kiri pada suami yang sejati 

Sebalik bersih wajahmu 

Disebalik tabir dirimu 

Ada rahsia agung tersembunyi dalam diri 

Itulah sekeping hati yang takut pada Ilahi 

Berpegang pada janji mengabdikan diri 

Malumu mahkota yang tidak perlukan singgahsana 

Tetapi ia berkuasa menjaga diri dan nama 

Tiada siapa yang akan boleh merampasnya 

Melainkan kau sendiri yang pergi menyerah diri 

Ketegasanmu umpama benteng negara dan agama 

Dari dirobohkan dan jua dari dibinasakannya 

Wahai puteriku sayang 

Kau bunga terpelihara 

Mahligai syurga itulah tempatnya 

Aduhai puteriku sayang 

Kau bunga kebanggaan 

Aduhai puteriku sayang 

Kau bunga idaman