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Hulu Langat, Selangor, Malaysia
I'm a guy who's trying to find my way around the world and trying to find what is the purpose of my existence, and I'm growing old day by day.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Warm Heart

For a moment I though I could forget you.
For a moment I thought I could still the loneliness in my heart.
I thought the past could no longer haunt me, nor hurt me.
How wrong I was.

For the past, no matter how distant, is as much a part of me as life itself.
And you are part of that life.
You are so much a part of me, of my dreams, my youth, and my ambitions that in all my tasks I can't help remembering you.
Many little delights and things remind me of you.

Yes, I came. And would my pride mock my real feelings?
Would the love song, the sweet and lovely smile on your face, be lost among the deepening shadows?

I have wanted to be alone. I thought I could make myself forget you in silence and in songs...

And yet I remembered. For who could forget the memory of the once lovely, the once beautiful, the once happy world such as ours?

I came because the song that I kept through the years is waiting to be sung. I cannot sing it without you. The song when sung alone will lose the essence of its tune, because you and I had been one.

I have wanted this misery to end, because it is part of my restlessness.

Can't you understand?
Can't you divine the depth and the tenderness of my feelings towards you?
Yes, can't you see how I suffer in this even darkness without you?

You went away because you mistook my silence for indifference.
But silence, my dear, is the language of my heart.
How could I essay the intensity of my love when silence speaks a more eloquent tone?
But perhaps, you didn't understand....

Remember, I came, because the gnawing loneliness is there and will not be lost until the music is sung, until the poem is heard, until silence is understood.....until you come to me again.

For you alone can blend music and memory into one consuming ecstasy.

A very great poem from one of my English lecturer's(Lim Ho Peng) friend, Annalee.
All credits goes to her.

I would also like to dedicate this poem to you..

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Puteriku Sayang

Aduhai puteriku sayang 
Aduhai puteriku sayang 
Puteriku sayang 

Lembutmu tak bererti kau mudah dijual beli 
Kau mampu menyaingi lelaki dalam berbakti 
Lembut bukan hiasan 
Bukan jua kebanggaan 
Tapi kau sayap kiri pada suami yang sejati 

Sebalik bersih wajahmu 
Disebalik tabir dirimu 
Ada rahsia agung tersembunyi dalam diri 
Itulah sekeping hati yang takut pada Ilahi 
Berpegang pada janji mengabdikan diri 

Malumu mahkota yang tidak perlukan singgahsana 
Tetapi ia berkuasa menjaga diri dan nama 
Tiada siapa yang akan boleh merampasnya 
Melainkan kau sendiri yang pergi menyerah diri 

Ketegasanmu umpama benteng negara dan agama 
Dari dirobohkan dan jua dari dibinasakannya 
Wahai puteriku sayang 
Kau bunga terpelihara 
Mahligai syurga itulah tempatnya 

Aduhai puteriku sayang 
Kau bunga kebanggaan 
Aduhai puteriku sayang 
Kau bunga idaman