My Everything

The loneliness of nights alone

The search for strength to carry on

My every hope has seemed to die

My eyes had no more tears to cry

Then like the sun shines from up above

You surrounded me with your endless love

And all the things I couldn't see

Are now so clear to me

Now all my hopes and all my dreams

Are suddenly reality

You've opened up my heart to feel

A kind of love that's truly real

A guiding light that'll never fade

There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade

For the love you give it won't let go

I hope you'll always know

You're the breath of life in me

The only one that sets me free

And you have made my soul complete for all time

For all time

You are my everything

Nothing your love won't bring

My life is yours alone

The only one I've ever known

Your spirit pulls me through

When nothing else will do

Every night I pray

Down on bended knee

That you will always be

My everything, oh my everything

Thanks to 98 Degree

Warm Heart

For a moment I though I could forget you.
For a moment I thought I could still the loneliness in my heart.
I thought the past could no longer haunt me, nor hurt me.
How wrong I was.


For the past, no matter how distant, is as much a part of me as life itself.
And you are part of that life.
You are so much a part of me, of my dreams, my youth, and my ambitions that in all my tasks I can't help remembering you.
Many little delights and things remind me of you.


Yes, I came. And would my pride mock my real feelings?
Would the love song, the sweet and lovely smile on your face, be lost among the deepening shadows?


I have wanted to be alone. I thought I could make myself forget you in silence and in songs...


And yet I remembered. For who could forget the memory of the once lovely, the once beautiful, the once happy world such as ours?


I came because the song that I kept through the years is waiting to be sung. I cannot sing it without you. The song when sung alone will lose the essence of its tune, because you and I had been one.


I have wanted this misery to end, because it is part of my restlessness.


Can't you understand?
Can't you divine the depth and the tenderness of my feelings towards you?
Yes, can't you see how I suffer in this even darkness without you?


You went away because you mistook my silence for indifference.
But silence, my dear, is the language of my heart.
How could I essay the intensity of my love when silence speaks a more eloquent tone?
But perhaps, you didn't understand....


Remember, I came, because the gnawing loneliness is there and will not be lost until the music is sung, until the poem is heard, until silence is understood.....until you come to me again.


For you alone can blend music and memory into one consuming ecstasy.
YOU ALONE....




A very great poem from one of my English lecturer's(Lim Ho Peng) friend, Annalee.
All credits goes to her.

I would also like to dedicate this poem to you..

Puteriku Sayang

Aduhai puteriku sayang 

Aduhai puteriku sayang 

Puteriku sayang 

Lembutmu tak bererti kau mudah dijual beli 

Kau mampu menyaingi lelaki dalam berbakti 

Lembut bukan hiasan 

Bukan jua kebanggaan 

Tapi kau sayap kiri pada suami yang sejati 

Sebalik bersih wajahmu 

Disebalik tabir dirimu 

Ada rahsia agung tersembunyi dalam diri 

Itulah sekeping hati yang takut pada Ilahi 

Berpegang pada janji mengabdikan diri 

Malumu mahkota yang tidak perlukan singgahsana 

Tetapi ia berkuasa menjaga diri dan nama 

Tiada siapa yang akan boleh merampasnya 

Melainkan kau sendiri yang pergi menyerah diri 

Ketegasanmu umpama benteng negara dan agama 

Dari dirobohkan dan jua dari dibinasakannya 

Wahai puteriku sayang 

Kau bunga terpelihara 

Mahligai syurga itulah tempatnya 

Aduhai puteriku sayang 

Kau bunga kebanggaan 

Aduhai puteriku sayang 

Kau bunga idaman

It's All About You

It's all about you...
It's all about you baby...

Yesterday you ask me something I thought you knew...
So I told you with a smile, it's all about you...
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too...
Said you'd made my life worthwhile, it's all about you...

And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me too
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you

It's all about you ^_^

Heaven Knows

She's always on my mind

From the time I wake up 'til I close my eyes

She's everywhere I go

She's all I know

And though she's so far away

It just keeps getting stronger everyday

And even now she's gone

I'm still holding on

So tell me, where do I start

'Coz its breaking my heart

Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday

Only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find their way

Only heaven knows

And all I can do is hope and pray

'Coz heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her,
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine


But tell me,
Where do I start
'Coz its breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday

Only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find their way

Only heaven knows

And all I can do is hope and pray

'Coz heaven knows

Why I live in despair

'Coz wide awake or dreamin',

I know she's never there

And all the time I act so brave,

I'm shakin' inside

Why does it hurt me so?

Maybe my love will come back someday

Only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find their way

Only heaven knows

And all I can do is hope and pray

'Coz heaven knows

Heaven knows... Heaven knows...

For the Rest of My Life

I praise Allah for sending me you my love

You found me home and sail with me

And I`m here with you

Now let me let you know

You`ve opened my heart

I was always thinking that love was wrong

But everything was changed when you came along

And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you. Loving you

For the rest of my life

Thru days and night

I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes

Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

I feel so blessed when I think of you

And I ask Allah to bless all we do

You`re my wife and my friend and my strength

And I pray we`re together eternally

Now I find myself so strong

Everything changed when you came along

And theres a couple word I want to say

For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you. Loving you

For the rest of my life

Thru days and night

I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes

Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

Now that you`re here

In front of me I strongly feel love

And I have no doubt

And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally

For the rest of my life

I`ll be with you

I`ll stay by your side honest and true

Till the end of my time

I`ll be loving you. Loving you

For the rest of my life

Thru days and night

I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes

Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

Oldies

listening to an old song can really make u feel relax.
some of the oldies that i really like:-

kenny g,
george benson,
carlos santana,
bryan adams,
ramli sarip,
m nasir,
anuar zain,

who else??
actually its a heck of a long list if i were to list them all....
hahahaha...

Stand Out

Open up your eyes, take a look at me
Get the picture fixed in your memory
I'm driven by the rythm like the beat of a heart
And I won't stop until I start
To stand out
To stand out

Some people settle for the typical thing
Livin' all their lives waiting in the wings
It ain't a question of "if", just a matter of time
Before I move to the front of the line

Once you're watching every move that I make
You gotta believe that I got what it takes

To stand out, above the crowd
Even if I gotta shout out loud
'Til mine is the only face you'll see
Gonna stand out ...
'Til ya notice me

If the squeaky wheel's always gettin' the grease
I'm totally devoted to disturbing the peace
And I'll do it all again, when I get done
Until I become your number one 

No method to the madness, and no means of escape
Gonna break every rule or bend them all outta shape
It ain't a question of "how", just a matter of when
You get the message that I'm tryin' to send 

I'm under a spell, I'm in over my head
And you know I'm going all the way to the end 

To stand out, above the crowd
Even if I gotta shout out loud
'Til mine is the only face you see
Gonna stand out ...
'Til ya notice me

If I could make you stop and take a look at me
instead of just, walkin' on
There's nothin that
I wouldn't do if it was gettin' you to notice
I'm alive 

All I need is half a chance,
a second thought, a second glance
To prove, I got whatever it takes

It's a piece of cake

To stand out, above the crowd
Even if I gotta shout out loud
'Til mine is the only face you'll see
Gonna, stand out, staaaand out

Stand out!
Stand out!

'Til mine is the only face you'll see
Gonna stand out

'Til ya notice me

this is a very old song.

almost forgot that this is one of my favourite song =)

Smile

"let just say one day in ur life u fall down while walking.

what will u do??

u get back up and stand right.

coz if u don't, u won't get anywhere.

but sometimes in life,

when u fall down,

u feel like u don't have the strength to get back up.

and it is a lie to think that u can get through this life, alone.

its a lie.

u see i have experienced failure in my life.

and if i fail a hundred times,do u think that i will just give up??
no i will not.
and if i fail a hundred times more, i will not going to give up.

i will keep on trying again, and again and again.

and i'm gonna tell u this.

it is NOT THE END.

it matters how u going to finish.

r u gonna finish strong?

and u will find that strength to get back up within u." - Nick Vujicic

just something that i want u readers to think about.

Never ever ever give up

when u realise what u can achieve in life,

when u think u can't afford to go on,

when u realise the unlimited potential in ur life,

what u need to understand is that,

u can't afford... to give up.

and this is the message.

NEVER EVER EVER GIVE UP

by: Nick Vujicic

love this guy a lot.

Perfectionism

While searching for something random inside the Wikipedia, I came across this term; Perfectionism. I'm amazed by this term. Wow. To think that there is a term that describe people like that. I'm not insulting them nor envy them. I'm doing this just for the purpose of sharing with you all.

The definition that I get from the Wikipedia, Perfectionism is a belief that perfection can and should be attained. In its pathological form, perfectionism is a belief that work or output that is anything less than perfect is unacceptable.

There's more actually. Most of the psychologist said that this kind of lifestyle is actually an unhealthy lifestyle and belief. There are two types of perfectionist:-

1. Normal perfectionist: derive a very real sense of pleasure from the labours of a painstaking effort.
2. Neurotic perfectionist: unable to feel satisfaction because in their own eyes they never seem to do things well enough to warrant that feeling of satisfaction.

Actually there's more. Some of them describe perfectionist as having obsessive personality types which is distinct from obsessive-compulsive disorder. Perfectionist are obsessives who need to feel in control at all times to protect themselves and ensure their own safety. But there are also good points in this type of personality. By being constantly vigilant and trying extremely hard, they can ensure that they not only fail to disappoint or are beyond reproach but that they can protect against unforeseen issues.

Wow. there are also pros and cons in this type of personality. Very interesting indeed. For some reason that I actually don't know about it myself, I want to study this type of people. Why they have this type of personality? For what purpose do they want to live this kind of life?

But whatever it is, you can't judge the book by its cover. Maybe they have their own purposes by taking that  kind of lifestyle. So we need to respect and appreciate each others uniqueness. That makes us human. We are not perfect. But along the journey, we will find many challenges. That challenges will shape our true self.

P/S: this post is not related to anyone at all. i did this just to fulfill my free time :)

A very nice quote

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage"


That's a quote that I read from one of my friends' blog. Think about it.


To Ayu, tima kacih byk2 ek. Aku pinjam hang punya quotation tu sat xD

Compromise or Sacrifice?

Compromise or sacrifice. What is the difference between these two words, or are they the same? Indeed there is a big difference between these two words. Compromise is about lowering our demands and expectations on people or the things we want, while Sacrifice is about giving up something in order to get something even bigger. So which one of these gives you more happiness? Let us examine both of them a little more.

The word “compromise” is an interesting concept. Somewhere along our lives, many of us have come to believe that compromise is the only way to keep the peace and stay happy. In reality, compromise causes frustration and unhappiness simply because you cannot have your cake and eat it too! I got this quote from someone. He says, “If you limit your choices only to what seem possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want and all that is left is compromise.”

It is in my belief that the best and only way to find peace and happiness is through making “sacrifice”. But do not get me wrong. I am not advocating sainthood as the way to happiness and fulfillment although at first glance it may seem so. Be assured I am not asking you to live a martyr’s life where you sacrifice the pleasures of life! Certainly, I am not planning for this route nor do I think this is the only route to gain life fulfillment (or to reach heaven to be with the stars). I am simply a human being trying to find and live a life of purpose and meaning.

So where does sacrifice fit into living a happy and fulfilling life? This question will probably answer it well: “What are you willing to GIVE UP in order to have the life you want?” in other words, what are you willing to SACRIFICE so you can have what you want most of your life?

Ask anyone who has “made well” in life and they will tell you the things they had to give up in order to “get there”. In their account, you will also hear of the “this and that” of what they had to do, or in short, the sacrifices they had to put up with as well.

So this is true for everything we dearly want, be in financial or career goal, making a relationship work or following your heart. All of these things require sacrifice and not compromise. If you are serious about having something different in your life you have to be in it a 100%; anything else is a compromise and you will most likely suffer through the whole or deal with before giving up.

In my reckoning the first question you need to answer is this question: “Is my heart in this?” if the answer is “NO” then its game over. Be kind to yourself and save yourself a load of unnecessary struggle and grief by finding something else you are passionate about.

So what do you love doing and are passionate about? In trying to answer this for yourself it’s important to remember that everyone is different and everyone has a place and purpose to fulfil in this lifetime, otherwise they simply would not exist! So back to the question: what sacrifice are you willing to make in order to get it?